Wishing you a Very Merry Christmas and A Happy New Year.

~The King Family~

 I believe in the sun even when it is not shining. I believe in love even when I feel it not. I believe in God even when He is silent. *Written on a wall in a concentration camp*

Struggling, but still hanging in there

So I just thought I'd share with you what I have been struggling with these last few months...sit back, grab a cup of hot chocolate and relax while I tell a tale of....well you can decide for yourselves what kind of a tale it is when your finished reading.


Several months ago, nine to be exact, I found out I was in complete remission from Thyroid Cancer, and to say I was elated would not quite hit the mark.  I was feeling on top of the world, I had energy galore and was back to "normal", whatever that is...for the next few months I was on fire with high emotions, energy to boot, and a peace I had not felt for quite some time. As most of you know I am a woman who loves the Lord, Jesus Christ...my personal Savior, and if you have read most anything I have posted, you will know that most of it has something uplifting or spiritual about it...that is just my way... until recently that is.  


I am finding myself struggling with my spiritual life, not really my faith, but a kind of deep...even now I can't for the life of me think of what to call it.  I know in my heart that God has a plan and that it is perfect, but I can't really feel His presence...and I know that part of the problem is that I have been absent from my reading of the Word, absent from church, and just...lost.  


Some things have been happening here at home with my oldest teen (nothing earth shattering) that I can't help but be shattered from...and can't help feeling like I could have done more...and that I am losing a closeness in the relationship that I have always cherished, and may never get back.  That is part of why I am lost, I can admit that, but I don't know how to fight this. It just feels like all the work my husband and I did as parents didn't do any good, that it all was for nothing.  I know that is not reality, but it is how I feel. As a mom I feel like it is my fault, and even now after all has been said and done, I am left wondering what in the world has happened to my world, and will it ever be right side up again?


Well meaning friends have told me that I did everything right, and that us parents cannot make the decisions for our children, that there comes a point in our teens lives where we have to give them over to God...I know all this, yet the pain is still here, it is real, and I don't know how to accept this new (less that satisfying) relationship I have had no choice but to accept with my surly, withdrawn, teen, who now has to live with the consequences of the choice they made. I am just lost, and can't seem to find my way out right now.


God's plan is perfect...I know this and hold on to that precious promise.  His love is infinitely high and wide, He has enough healing for my hearts pain, and even though I am weak, I will lean on Him for strength and comfort, and I know that He will bring me through this trial, for my God is good All the time.


May God's face shine upon you today and beyond, and may He give you joy so abundantly you have to give it away.  Blessings, and have a wonderful Thanksgiving season.

I believe in the sun even when it is not shining. I believe in love even when I feel it not. I believe in God even when He is silent. *Written on a wall in a concentration camp*

Enjoy and Have a wonderful Thanksgiving Day!


I believe in the sun even when it is not shining. I believe in love even when I feel it not. I believe in God even when He is silent. *Written on a wall in a concentration camp*

Fighting Temptations

I believe in the sun even when it is not shining. I believe in love even when I feel it not. I believe in God even when He is silent. *Written on a wall in a concentration camp*

Update For October 2010

So I thought I would update y'all on what I have been doing these past few

weeks/months.  Well the kids are all in school and doing very well so far.  My daughter changed teachers already, but that went very smoothly, fortunately for all involved.  You know how it is when your kids go back to school and you are left with this immense...silence.  It is like a huge sigh of relief...kind of like, wow, I haven't heard that in so long (12 long weeks) I forgot what it sounded like.

I started going in to our store to help my hubby put freight away on Wednesday mornings, and I am also cleaning house for a friend one day a week, so that keeps me busy.  I Also meet with my best friend for lunch every Tuesday afternoon, and we try to catch up on our week...so I have been a lot busier than normal.

As far as my health goes I am well.  I just saw my doctor and all my tests came out wonderful...yay!  Sadly I found out my doctor is leaving me, but his assistant is staying so I am not too worried at this point.  I know what to look for, as far as me getting sick again, so I should be fine.  I will go in once a year to get tests to make sure I am still in remission, but other than that, things are great.

I am still not sure I will keep this blog going, it seems to be harder and harder for me to be consistent.  For now I will continue it, until it becomes glaringly obvious that I need to quit, so thanks for staying loyal friends, God bless.

I believe in the sun even when it is not shining. I believe in love even when I feel it not. I believe in God even when He is silent. *Written on a wall in a concentration camp*

His Gentleness Makes Great

Meditation on 2 Samuel 22:36:

David said:  "You have assigned to me, committed to me the protective defense of Your liberty, deliverance, prosperity.  Your gentle patience nourishes and enables me to grow up, multiplying Your goodness."

God Speaks To My Heart:

When your spirit is nourished by My gentleness, the evil done you in the past can be viewed through the veil of forgiveness.  You can see your own failures and grievous sins through My burning eyes, which cleanse and make right.  Yes, gently I set you free to be!

"And Thy gentleness makes me great."  Psalm 18:35 (NAS)

*Devotion taken from "The Fruit Of The Spirit" by Sarah Hornsby

I believe in the sun even when it is not shining. I believe in love even when I feel it not. I believe in God even when He is silent. *Written on a wall in a concentration camp*

Gentle Among You!

Meditation on 1 Thessalonians 2:7~8:

Paul said: "But we were mild, kind among you even as a nurse nourishes her children with warmth.  Thus yearning with affection for you, we were well pleased to share with you not only the good news of God, but also our own vital spirit because you were dearly beloved by us."

God speaks to my heart:

Those who come to know Me through you will always be responsive to your tender concern.  As you share yourself with them, as you are open, vulnerable, honest, they will realize saints are human beings, frail and faulty, who have persistently held onto Me through every kind of circumstance and found Me faithful, worthy of trust.

"The servant of the Lord must not strive; but be gentle." 2 Tim. 2:24 (kjv)

*Devotion taken from "The Fruit Of The Spirit" by Sarah Hornsby

I believe in the sun even when it is not shining. I believe in love even when I feel it not. I believe in God even when He is silent. *Written on a wall in a concentration camp*

Video Day

All I can say is ENJOY!

I believe in the sun even when it is not shining. I believe in love even when I feel it not. I believe in God even when He is silent. *Written on a wall in a concentration camp*

Septembers Daily Devotional #4

His Name Shall Endure

Meditation on Psalm 72:17

His authority and character shall endure forever; His character shall sprout new life perpetually--as long as the sun and human beings shall kneel, blessing God in thanksgiving, adoration, and praise. All nations shall call Him blessed!

God Speaks To My Heart

What is most valuable to you? What is most precious? Keep searching for what really lasts, for the value that grows forever. You will find Me!

"The Lord shall endure forever." Psalm 9:7 (KJV)

*Devotion taken from "The Fruit Of The Spirit" by Sarah Hornsby*

I believe in the sun even when it is not shining. I believe in love even when I feel it not. I believe in God even when He is silent. *Written on a wall in a concentration camp*

September Daily Devotional 3

Longsuffering Of God

1 Peter 3:18-20.. (18)For Christ died for sins once for all, the righteous for the unrighteous, to bring you to God. He was put to death in the body but made alive by the Spirit, (19)Through whom also he went and preached to the spirits in prison,  (20)who disobeyed long ago when God waited patiently in the days of Noah while the ark was being built. In it only a few people, eight in all, were saved through water...

Meditation

The Messiah experienced extreme pain and died once for all our offenses. But He was made alive by God's Spirit, through whom Jesus went and preached to the souls imprisoned in hell, who had been willfully and perversely disobedient in the old days of Noah when God waited with patient forbearance.

God speaks to my heart

When moral and ethical standards of the world go down, there is less and less acknowledgment of a living relationship with Me, the patient but just God. Too easily My name can be used to "bless" many actions that are not according to My nature. So you much be in that listening place, like Noah. You can hear My direction for you today, and be cleansed of those false ways.

"The Lord knows how to rescue godly men." 2 Peter 2:9 (NIV)

*Devotion taken from The Fruit Of The Spirit by Sarah Hornsby*

I believe in the sun even when it is not shining. I believe in love even when I feel it not. I believe in God even when He is silent. *Written on a wall in a concentration camp*

Love This Forward

The Little Things

You might remember, the head of a company survived
9/11 because his son started kindergarten.

Another fellow was alive because it was
His turn to bring donuts.

One woman was late because her
Alarm clock didn't go off in time.

One was late because of being stuck on the NJ Turnpike
Because of an auto accident.

One of them
Missed his bus.

One spilled food on her clothes and had to take
Time to change.

One's
Car wouldn't start.

One couldn't
Get a taxi.

The one that struck me was the man
Who put on a new pair of shoes that morning,
Took the various means to get to work
But before he got there, he developed
a blister on his foot.

He stopped at a drugstore to buy a Band-Aid.
That is why he is alive today..

Now when I am
Stuck in traffic ,
Miss an elevator,
Turn back to answer a ringing telephone ...
All the little things that annoy me.
I think to myself,
This is exactly where
God wants me to be
At this very moment..

Next time your morning seems to be
Going wrong ,

You can't seem to find the car keys,
You hit every traffic light,
Don't get mad or frustrated;
It May be just that

God is at work watching over you.

May God continue to bless you
With all those annoying little things
And may you remember their possible purpose.

I believe in the sun even when it is not shining. I believe in love even when I feel it not. I believe in God even when He is silent. *Written on a wall in a concentration camp*

September Daily Devotional 2

GOD WILL CHANGE YOU

~Many plans are in a man's mind, but it is the Lord's purpose for him that will stand.~ Proverbs 19:21

Even though you may still be operating in old habits, you still have hope of change, but you can't change yourself. God will change you, if you seek Him with your whole heart.

Don't be in a hurry for God to finish working in your life. We want everything to be done instantly, but God is not interested in our schedule. The enemy may thwart your plans, but God's plans don't get thwarted, and He has a unique plan for you.

Seek God's plan for your life. Stay on fire, red hot, zealous. Pursue His purpose for you with every ounce of energy you have. There is nothing in this world that is worth seeking more.

*Devotion taken from "STARTING YOUR DAY RIGHT with Joyce Meyer*

I believe in the sun even when it is not shining. I believe in love even when I feel it not. I believe in God even when He is silent. *Written on a wall in a concentration camp*

Devotion Time

Hey all, just thought I'd let you know I will be posting a devotional most every day, taken from my devotional "STARTING YOUR DAY RIGHT" by Joyce Meyer.  Each devotional is short and sweet (so to speak) and can be done easily.  I just want to share what I find helpful, and it is especially great for those of us who have children and are on the go with not a lot of time to spare (most of the time).  So I hope ya'll enjoy them, and if you do let me know by leaving a comment.  May God's face shine upon us all today and beyond!

(The first devotional follows this post)

I believe in the sun even when it is not shining. I believe in love even when I feel it not. I believe in God even when He is silent. *Written on a wall in a concentration camp*

September Daily Devotional 1

Eliminate Excuses

~For the Lord your God walks in the midst of your camp to deliver you and to give up your enemies before you.  Therefore shall your camp be holy, that He may see nothing indecent among you.~ Deut. 23:14

If a habit is controlling you, you will not enjoy the best that God offers you.  Don't make excuses for bondages that seem to have a hold on you. Denial and excuses will keep you from enjoying your life.

Whether is is an eating disorder or a bad temper, you cannot blame it on your genes or your family. God makes a way of escape for us and promises a good life for those who are born again. Claim your rights as a child of God. Say, "I am a new person in Christ; I can do all things through Christ who strengthes me" (see Philippians 4:13)

*Devotion taken from "Starting your day right" by Joyce Meyer*

I believe in the sun even when it is not shining. I believe in love even when I feel it not. I believe in God even when He is silent. *Written on a wall in a concentration camp*

Words of Wisdom

~Hungry souls are everywhere. Be watchful. Remain open. God will fill your eyes with compassion, your words with wisdom, and your heart with mercy. Introduce the world to love. Introduce the world to Jesus.~  Kathy Triccoli

~Enjoy the little things. One day you may look back and realize, they were the Big things~

I believe in the sun even when it is not shining. I believe in love even when I feel it not. I believe in God even when He is silent. *Written on a wall in a concentration camp*

Prayer For Peace

Dear Father, will You please meet me right here, right now and quiet my heart so that I can rest and regroup? Thank You for the comfort of knowing that while I sometimes get waylaid, You never take Your eyes from me. In Jesus' Name, Amen.

I believe in the sun even when it is not shining. I believe in love even when I feel it not. I believe in God even when He is silent. *Written on a wall in a concentration camp*

Prayer

Our Father who art in heaven, hallowed be Thy name; Thy kingdom come Thy will be done, on earth as it is in heaven; Give us this day our daily bread, and forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who have trespassed against us; and lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil. For Thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory forever, Amen.

I believe in the sun even when it is not shining. I believe in love even when I feel it not. I believe in God even when He is silent. *Written on a wall in a concentration camp*

Life is Good

Hey friends and family, I feel the need to check in and let ya'll know what is happening in my life and with this blog...

First as to what has been happening in my life, here goes...I have been having a wonderful sabatical you might say, just resting and relaxing, doing some studying of The Word of God, and I even had me a wonderful weekend vacation catching up with some old family friends in Washington. 

The rest and relaxation was much needed and I can safely say the depression is over...Praise Adonai...as for the studying of The Word of God, I am finding that when I go back to the Bible I find peace and solace...and whole again.  When I am away for too long I start to feel there is a hole that slowly grows, and I feel as if I am missing an integral part of...me!

This last weekend I spent with old family friends, in fact you might remember how we re-connected through this blog...anyway..it was a blast, we went into Vancouver and walked around the saturday open-air market, (that was an experience) then we went into Portland and found us some food carts on 23rd and had us some lunch. We also found our way to Voodoo donuts but the line was looooong, like around the building long, so we took pictures and I promise to post them as soon as I can get them onto my computer.  There was swimming and walking and some good food.  My friend is a wonderful cook and such a sweetie, she went and got me some tamales to bring home to my boys who did not get to go.

So that brings us here to today...I am not going to promise you that I will blog every day or even every other day...I am probably not going to be doing many or any of the Meme's...I would really like to devote my blog to uplifting others, and to bring Jesus and joy to my readers.  That being said, I am human, I will mess up, but I will do my best with God's help to lift up and edify my brothers and sisters, friends and family, and to bring God's Word to the masses, so to speak, in my own way.

Thanks to all of you who have stuck by me and for your words of love and encouragement, blessings to you all. 

Here is a wonderful picture of Miss Molly with a new friend she made in Vancouver this past weekend...Pepperjack the Gecko!

I believe in the sun even when it is not shining. I believe in love even when I feel it not. I believe in God even when He is silent. *Written on a wall in a concentration camp*

Hey Out There

Okay, so it's been awhile since I have posted anything...at all.  I have been taking some much needed time to deal with various issues, one of them being depression.   I am beginning to feel better and having less pressure sure helps. I have been spending time with the kids, going to the library, swimming, or just hanging out...it has been so nice!  It seems the more time I spend on facebook, or my blog, the more stressed I become.  Largely it is because I feel pressured to fulfill some imaginary obligation I have created in my mind.  It has nothing to do with anyone else putting pressure on me, it's all me.

I am toying with the idea of giving up this blog, but I don't want to make any quick decisions about that.  This blog was created to be an outlet for my creativity; something I could feel accomplished about.  Does that make any sense?  Maybe I am just blocked and this time away will be helpful in clearing my mind.  Maybe I have said all there is to say.  Maybe not.  I know one thing, the more time I spend away from this blog, the less I have to say...hmmm, I wonder if that is a good thing or a bad thing. 

I have to face facts...I get wrapped up in facebook, this blog, t.v., and I spend less time in God's presence and in His book, and with His people.  The more time I invest in other things, the less time I invest in my relationship with my Savior.  So I have started to have quiet time first thing in the morning before the kids are up...that includes prayer and devotions...It is like meeting up with a friend I haven't spoken to for awhile, unsure at first but better every time it happens. 

I guess I said all this to say...I'm here, I'm alive, I am somewhat broken and need more time, I will be back but I don't know when, and I miss you all...but something tells me ya'll are just fine and dandy.  Blessings to each and every one of you! 

I believe in the sun even when it is not shining. I believe in love even when I feel it not. I believe in God even when He is silent. *Written on a wall in a concentration camp*

Book Review...The Magic Warble

Twelve year old Kristina Kingsly feels like the most unpopular girl in her school.  The kids all tease her, and she never seems to fit it.  But when Kristina receives an unusual Christmas gift, she suddenly finds herself magically transported to the land of Bernovem, home of dwarfs, gnomes, fairies, talking animals and the evil Queen Sentiz.

In Bernovem, Kristina not only fits in, she's honored as "the chosen one" the only one who can release the land from Queen Sentiz's control.  But it's not as simple as it seems.  To save Bernovem, she must place the gift she was given, the famous "Magic Warble", in it's final resting place. And she must travel through the deep forest, climb a treacherous mountain, and risk capture by the queen's "zekbocks" before she reaches her destination.  Guided by her new fairy friends, Clover and Looper and by Prince Werrien, a teenage boy, as well as an assortment of other characters, Kristina sets off on a perilous journey that not only tests her strength but her heart.

I have to say I so enjoyed reading this book with my daughter.  The adventure takes you away into a mystical world.  This story is about keeping on, no matter what, it's about true friendship that sticks even when things get hard.  Kristina was an ordinary girl in every way in her world, but when she was in Bernovem she was special, honored even.  She made wonderful friends and learned that she was important, she was of value, and she had something to contribute. 

I would definitely recommend this book to anyone with children, I think the story is a timeless one with a message of courage, hope and love.  This is a story where the ordinary can be extraordinary, where the unlovely can be lovely, and the small can be Great!

I believe in the sun even when it is not shining. I believe in love even when I feel it not. I believe in God even when He is silent. *Written on a wall in a concentration camp*

The Book Of Eli

Watched this movie last night for the first time...I really liked it.  I don't normally like violent, bloody movies, but this one had a great story and I found myself enjoying it!

 The story was what really got me...it was about this man who heard God tell him to go west with The King James Bible, and that he would be protected as he traveled...he was to take it to a particular place it turns out...well I don't want to give anything away, let's just say I would reccomend you go see it for yourselves, if you haven't already!

I believe in the sun even when it is not shining. I believe in love even when I feel it not. I believe in God even when He is silent. *Written on a wall in a concentration camp*

Hello Out There

Hey friends, I am here!  I have been dealing with some depression but I am okay, it is something I have dealt with for over 20 years so it is nothing new...I just wanted to let you all know I am alive, and I haven't forgotten you or this blog! It is hard to write when you are numb and it feels like you will never feel anything again ever...


I will try to keep checking in but just know that I love you all and I am blessed to have you as friends!

 I believe in the sun even when it is not shining. I believe in love even when I feel it not. I believe in God even when He is silent. *Written on a wall in a concentration camp*

Jesus Saves

I believe in the sun even when it is not shining. I believe in love even when I feel it not. I believe in God even when He is silent. *Written on a wall in a concentration camp*

Very Interesting Indeed

Our Church showed the documentary/movie, The Case For A Creator the other night, and I absolutely loved every second of it.  Lee Strobel is amazing and so is his story!

Here are a few pieces of information I gleaned from this movie...

A. It really would take a blind leap of faith to believe in Naturalistic Evolution presented by Stanley Miller, or The Cambrian Explosion , as well as Darwin's Tree of Life Theory.

All of these theories, are just that theories they could never prove. In fact all or most of them were proved scientifically to be impossible, and none of them proved to be even remotely possible.

B. Edmund Whittaker, Physicist said..."There is no ground for supposing that matter and energy existed before and were suddenly galvanized into action.  It is simpler to postulate creation 'ex nihilo'...Devine will constituting nature from nothingness."

What can I say but read Genesis Chapter 1... "In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth..."

C. Robert Jastrow, Astronomer said..."The chain of events leading to man commenced suddenly and sharply at a definite moment in time, in a flash of light."  {{Sounds like the creation event to me)

D. The evidence of Physics...you have to have...

- Precisely balanced laws and constants (balanced on a razor's edge)

-Gravity

-Cosmological Constant

.... The presice rate of expansion of the universe, allowing for complex life.

.... For one atom to be produced, gravity has to be fine-tuned precisely to:
1:100,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000
well you get the point...

E. Multiple Universes?

-What evidence do we have for this...none

-If so (which we don't) who built the generator?

-At least 20 different factors that must be precisely in place to sustain life on the Earth.

Life-sustaining transparent atmosphere, size and relative distance of the Earth, Moon, and Sun, the Earth's location in the galaxy, etc.

...by doing science, we find...God ~Lee Strobel

F. The Evidence of Biological Information (DNA and RNA)

-DNA functions like a software program, only one that is more complex than anyone has ever seen or produced.

-Where did the information in DNA come from?

-Information requires a material medium, but it transcends the material medium.

Only one known cause...Intelligence.

~"The heavens declare the glory of God, the skies proclaim the work of His hands.  Day after day they pour forth speech.  Night after night they proclaim knowledge.  Their voice goes out into all the earth, their works to the end of the world."  Psalm 19.

I would absolutely recommend you seeing this documentary, it will be well worth your time, and give you some great tools to share with others.

I believe in the sun even when it is not shining. I believe in love even when I feel it not. I believe in God even when He is silent. *Written on a wall in a concentration camp*

Checking In

Picture by Molly

Hey ya'll nothing much to report over this way, just a lot of relaxing and spending time with family! I hope your week is going well, blessings to ya'll. Here's a song for you today...




I believe in the sun even when it is not shining. I believe in love even when I feel it not. I believe in God even when He is silent. *Written on a wall in a concentration camp*

How Was Your 4th of July?

Hey all, just wanted to say I hope ya'll had a fine and dandy 4th of July! My family spent time with each other playing games, visiting, and eating of course!

I believe in the sun even when it is not shining. I believe in love even when I feel it not. I believe in God even when He is silent. *Written on a wall in a concentration camp*

Moi' And Stuff

My new look!

My strongman Jacob, holding his brother up!

Jesse getting in on the fun with Mama!

Jesse getting pie'd for cancer @Relay For Life!

Some of the 80 lbs of strawberries my hubby and boys cored and put into gallon size freezer bags for making jam, jelly and pies!

Our car for the CarSmash @Relay For Life here in Josephine County Oregon! Our team won best on-site fundraiser this year!

I believe in the sun even when it is not shining. I believe in love even when I feel it not. I believe in God even when He is silent. *Written on a wall in a concentration camp*

Wacky Wednesday

I believe in the sun even when it is not shining. I believe in love even when I feel it not. I believe in God even when He is silent. *Written on a wall in a concentration camp*

Follow Me Back Tuesday

Hey ya'll it's time again for Follow Me Back Tuesday, yay! This fun meme is hosted by the lovely ladies at...Survey Junkie, Little Yaya's, Review Retreat, and Boobies,Babies and A Blog! Have a wonderful day ya'll! Now go on over and follow some new blogs today!

I believe in the sun even when it is not shining. I believe in love even when I feel it not. I believe in God even when He is silent. *Written on a wall in a concentration camp*