Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Hey Out There

Okay, so it's been awhile since I have posted anything...at all.  I have been taking some much needed time to deal with various issues, one of them being depression.   I am beginning to feel better and having less pressure sure helps. I have been spending time with the kids, going to the library, swimming, or just hanging out...it has been so nice!  It seems the more time I spend on facebook, or my blog, the more stressed I become.  Largely it is because I feel pressured to fulfill some imaginary obligation I have created in my mind.  It has nothing to do with anyone else putting pressure on me, it's all me.

I am toying with the idea of giving up this blog, but I don't want to make any quick decisions about that.  This blog was created to be an outlet for my creativity; something I could feel accomplished about.  Does that make any sense?  Maybe I am just blocked and this time away will be helpful in clearing my mind.  Maybe I have said all there is to say.  Maybe not.  I know one thing, the more time I spend away from this blog, the less I have to say...hmmm, I wonder if that is a good thing or a bad thing. 

I have to face facts...I get wrapped up in facebook, this blog, t.v., and I spend less time in God's presence and in His book, and with His people.  The more time I invest in other things, the less time I invest in my relationship with my Savior.  So I have started to have quiet time first thing in the morning before the kids are up...that includes prayer and devotions...It is like meeting up with a friend I haven't spoken to for awhile, unsure at first but better every time it happens. 

I guess I said all this to say...I'm here, I'm alive, I am somewhat broken and need more time, I will be back but I don't know when, and I miss you all...but something tells me ya'll are just fine and dandy.  Blessings to each and every one of you! 

I believe in the sun even when it is not shining. I believe in love even when I feel it not. I believe in God even when He is silent. *Written on a wall in a concentration camp*

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8 comments:

welcome to my world of poetry said...

Hi, I do hope you are feeling a wee bit better, I for one will be sorry to see you go, but it is your decision and people must respect that.Your health is paramount and with a family to raise even more so.
Whatever you decide I wish you well,
If you decide to stay I will be over the moon.

Take care.

Yvonne.

Bud Ezekiel H. said...

i'd hate to see you go as well, Shannon. i'm familiar with depression and when it hit me my writing came to a halt for a long, long time. if it weren't for blogging, i wouldn't have any friends. it's a lifeline, you might say. then again, i don't do facebook, twitter, or watch much TV. i second Yvonne's comment though...

Ellie said...

Number #1 symptom of thyroid being off is depression, #2 wt gain. Go
have a TSH done and write down all your symptoms. Summer throws me off...it is a different routine. I feel like I'm trying to row a boat in a current of white water. The house is either quiet or full of kids. My daughter has started with teen attitude this month. It is shocking to hear it come out of her mouth. I knew this day would come... My son is trying to move out...I worry, the kid can't wake up well to go to work. Going to college should be interesting.
I say, make a Dr's appt and go from there and know you are not alone in your struggles~! xXx

Bud Ezekiel H. said...

btw Shannon:)

after reading this post, i got to thinking about it. decided to take a writing break for a spell. going to be limited to reading blogs/commenting. more then anything else...need some time out with God too.

Mr. Stupid said...

I agree with Yvonne. It's your decision and I respect that. I'm sure there is an important reason behind leaving this blog. I wish you the very best and hope you and your family are well.
We would still love to have you around though. Have a nice day...:)

Rae said...

I have missed you, but I'm glad you have gotten some rest. In my opinion, I think blogging helps with depression. It's an outlet for your stress and sadness. And joy! Give up Facebook, Twitter, and all that other stuff. But keep this part of you. It matters.

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Brian Ray Todd said...

Shannon, It does make sense this your blog is an outlet for your creativity, but I also see more here. I don't see your blog as time away from your Lord & Savior, but time with Him and the Holy Spirit guiding you as you write to speak the Truth of Christ's love to a world that desperately needs to hear. Who knows the hearts that Jesus has prepared in advance to hear what you have to say. I agree that there is too much making demands on our lives today - Facebook, Cell Phones, TV, computers, work & home responsibilities, etc. It's a tough old world and easy for depression to creep in, when priorities need to be given a good look. Your relationship with your Savior is priority One.

I just want to say that you have been blessed and that you are a blessing with your blog, which truly is a ministry to others. Thank you.

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