So I have been on a kind of "Journey" or "Sabbatical" these past 10 days and while I would like to say it was a life changing experience, or that I had a "light bulb moment" I really can't. Let me tell you why.
Let's just be honest here...this whole finding yourself thing isn't really rocket science. I have found that I just need to stop, take a breath and get some things into perspective. I have also come to find that I am one of those (Hsp) people...or Highly Sensitive People, and because of that everything stresses me out, literally. Including but not limited to...noise, bright lights, caffeine, too many things going on at once, etc...
So I have begun to do some things differently...for example:
I meditate, candles, music and all that jazz.
I journal every day and night.
I pray every morning before I get out of bed.
I end my day calmly (This one I have yet to implement)
Turns out all I really needed to do was to stop, and take a moment for myself, and to remember that I am the kind of person who needs to turn off all the stimuli every once in awhile and just breathe. It's okay to have silence, in fact, I find that in the silence I can truly be me...and isn't that what I have been searching for all along?
I found this on facebook on day 4 of my Sabbatical and I found it to be just what I needed to hear.
On this day God wants you to know...
...that it's time you remembered who you really are. You are not your wallet, your job, your kids, your house. You are not your activities or your worries or the labels other people give you. Like an actor you play these roles, and like a good actor you sometimes forget who you really are. Time to wake up now, and remember that you are a being of immense power and breathtaking beauty created in the image of God.
I believe in the sun even when it is not shining. I believe in love even when I feel it not. I believe in God even when He is silent. *Written on a wall in a concentration camp*