As I sit here this morning I feel the need to do a bit of blogging...hey that's a new and refreshing feeling for me, I kind of like it!
I am reflecting on the last couple of weeks, here on the homestead, with my family. The kids were out of school for the Christmas celebration, and things were more relaxed and spontaneous than usual. Normally we have certain schedules to keep and needs that have to be met, but not @Christmas-time. During this time we can sleep-in, stay in bed all day and watch t.v., or just hang out with each other and have fun...there is no schedule. Well, except for one little thing, Jacob my son broke his thumb 2 days before vacation (wrestling practice) and had to go to the E.R. to get a cast...then a few days later to the orthopedist to get a hard cast up to his elbow...but even that did not get me too down. (Okay, maybe it did a little)
It has been a joy to just be with the kids, and the hubs, of course. We were able to spend real time together, and have lengthy conversations, or just play some games on our new Wii . Given the circumstances of the last 5 months, it has been very nice and welcome. I seem to have come through the depression and things with my 17 yr old son are looking up, as far as our relationship goes, so that is good news. I have yet to return to church, but I am reading my Bible and working on the relationship with my Father in heaven, so we (my Father and I) are making some progress on that front as well.
This Christmas season was real important to me, due to the fact that last year I was still so sick and recovering from treatment (cancer). Last year I was obsessed with my cancer and treatment so I had a harder time focusing on the reason for the season, although I did pray a lot and spent time reflecting on all I have been blessed with, so there is that.
This year I was able to sit back and relax and enjoy being alive and with my family and friends for another year, maybe many, many years, who's to say! All I know is that I am healthy, 50 lbs lighter, and in total remission from cancer...but more importantly the relationship with my heavenly Father is better, and I am a stronger person because of what God has brought me through, not in spite of it.
I truly hope that you all have been blessed this Christmas and in return, blessed someone else. God has been such a rock for me to lean on, and for that (and many more things) I am so, so grateful. I have leaned through the ages, that no matter what it is I am going through, God will bring me through to the other side, and show me wonderful things, that I might not have seen had I not gone through what he wanted me to experience. Not only that but God has a wonderful sense of humor...I'll leave that one up to your imagination.
Oh, and who knew that a Wii could bring a family together for some much needed bonding?
I believe in the sun even when it is not shining. I believe in love even when I feel it not. I believe in God even when He is silent. *Written on a wall in a concentration camp*